i was thinking about it
my time is
ok thats all
imma go slp now
talkin to my tumblr
i almost got into a crash yest
i was talking to adz about something
i cant remembr what
but i was
then i realised that
the cars in front of me were breaking
so i did
but they seemed to be getting too close too fast
thats when i realised and slammed on the opel's brakes
then i also realised the wheels skidding
and that it was a rainy day
so i released on the brakes
and slammed again
i stopped just in time.
i was just 1 finger's width away from the car in front
the 3 cars in front had hit each other
thats when i looked into my back view mirror and saw the proton mpv behind swerve to the right just to avoid me and almost hit the right barriers
all the scenes keep replaying in my mind
so i got out just to check the opel
and it was fine
and noone hit me
so that was good.
the reason why everybody slammed brakes
a car had hit a motorcyclist in the first lane
and so that car slammed brakes
and so did everyone else crashing into everyone else.
was fun in the beginning?
but then turned into a mess
i drove so much
when my friends
start becoming depreciating assets
when they start reminding me of irritatants i dont like
or when they start not respecting me
i willl fuck them over.
i will not be used like a fucking dog
i will not.
this is my life
id like to welcome yall
to the JJM show.
so ive literally been living life the way i want to
been paying the price for it
well the proton was fun
it was everything i wanted in so long
a true test of my ability to control a manual car.
then the vespa was totally on the ball la
i only had so much time to decide if i should buy or not
its quite sad?
lemme put it here so that if i died it be explained properly.
getting the call frmo school
made me doubt my ability to fund NYC
not only that, it also wondered what on earth i was doing
simply saving up and throwing away nearly 4000 dollars
of money i spent hours earning
its not easy you know
walking into neverland everyday
into that shithole
getting vommitted on
getting all that attitude
putting my pride aside to make my customer smile
being shouted at my ah bengs wayy younger than me who can spend 368 on bottles of liquid
thatt they drink and then vomit out
and there i was
clocking in all the hours and all that shit
just to spend it all
so it kinda crept into my mind
that nyc was not the way to go
then my dad blows up at me
after looi sent a letter to him
thats when i decided im not going
thats when i decided i wouldnt throw away all that money
thats when i decided that i would keep all that money and spend it wisely
thats when i decided i would dissappoint my cousins
thats when i decided it was better to cancel plans now,
and lose a few hundred
then to go ahead with plans
and lose 5000
i loved new york city.
i refuse now to go to nyc
cos ive finally accepted it
i reversed my thinking
as we all i know,
im fully capable of doing that kinda shit.
even though ill have 2 week free?
id rather work
and put the money into my vespa
i bought the vespa
cos i knew ive always entertained thoughts of getting a liscence
and i thought id never get it
i didnt know how i would pay for it
the initial 1500 i had in the bank was spent fully on
legal issues with HDB and LTA
enjoying a manual proton for 36 hours.
do i regret any of it?
sure i was mocked when i couldnt even get my own vespa started
sure i was spat at
when i broke the news that i wouldnt go to nyc even though i could.
sure it broke my heart to see my break hearts.
and to see tears fall.
im living life
i want to.
isnt that the album name of the vespa?
i decided that
it made more sense
1000 on buying the vespa
1000 on getting my bike license
1000 on doing the internals of the vespa
1000on doing the externals of the vespa
and still have
1000 to do whatever i want with
i can still work through all this while of spending
isnt it beautifull?
i wont have to come back home as i would have to after nyc
and recooperate losses
to come back to this stupid world
and have nothing in the bank
nothing in my stomach
this post came to me
after i rode the vespa today
i was just so restless seeing it sitting there
and farid did ask me to warm up the engine everyday
so i wheeled it under my block
then i knew i had trouble keeping the engine running
to i tried
and i realised that
if i simply gave the engine a bit of oil
and released the clutch, it would zoom forward
so seeing as how i wasnt ready for the carpark cos of all the cars around,
i saw this area behind my carpark which was ulu ttm
cos of construction
i kick started the engine,
put it in gear 1
and gave it abit of oil and guess what?
i shot forward
I COULD CONTROL IT
AND IT WAS FREAKING AMAZING
not only could i control the vespa,
it became weightless!
i could balance and turn and everything
superbly amazing really.
so in the momentum
i clutched in and shifted to 2
it shifted so amazingly smoothly
and then to gear 3
you have no idea
i was zooming up and down the back of my blocks
and it was heaven
so i turned off the engine and wheeled it into the carpark nextdoor and started it
it was AMAZING ON THE ROADS
but dangerous cos of the other road users
did my first proper left turn abit too wide and accidentally shifted into neutral with a full throttle making so much noise, the whole world turned
then i quickly put it in gear 2
and got it rolling forward like a pro....
damn that was fun
money means alot to me
not alot of people knows what its like
always worrying about money
so imma work
all tat the same time
i had 30 in my bank account 2 days ago
and now, after just 2 nights of tips,
) pay of 1300 just came in
im going to say it
i swapped new york
for the vespa
remembr how i kept saying i wanted to do something major on the date 11/11/11?
well guess what?
an amazing day in my life?
but getting my name changed as the new owner of a 1984 piaggio vespa on the equally awesome date of
not only that, but signging up for my license on that date and receiving it at my place on taht date.
ive been to new york
the feeling all would be the same
im not living there you know if i went in december
i would once again be a tourist
when i can finaly leave here to be a citizen of the USA
thats when ill give it my best.
but for now?
hoildays just got beat hands down
amazing little green thing